Back in 2019 I embarked on a weight loss journey. I had ballooned up to 208 lbs and I was desperate to get in shape. My weight has been a life long battle swinging from obesity to anorexia and back to obesity.
I was dealing with so many emotions back then, loneliness, gender identity and body dismorphia, dissatisfaction with my career. All of this culminated into a dark depression and I used food as a coping mechanism.
I don’t know exactly when my mindset changed, there was no blinding beam of light from heaven or sudden epiphany, I just woke one morning and chose to defeat my demons.
I wrote “I Will” after going for a run one morning. It was such a cold day in early spring and I definitely wanted to just give up, but instead I made up my mind that I was going to do this. And I did.
I told everyone I came in contact with that I had started a lifestyle change and that I was determined to lose the weight. Not to brag, but as a motivation tool for myself. I started a YouTube channel to document my journey and also serve as another tool to motivate myself. If I made a public deceleration I felt that I would be compelled to keep at it. It worked! I dropped over 30 lbs in the first year and I’ve mostly kept it off, even though I still have more to go.
The journey continues. Persistence, Will, Strength, Courage and Faith propel me on. I will not bend and I will not break. I will not give in and I will not give up. I will emerge victorious, because the hand that created me is the hand that leads me.